After having my baby I realize how the state of Alabama has robbed me of the natural birth that I wanted. After reading others stories on natural at home births I want to cry knowing I couldn’t have the birth I wanted.
You see, in the state if Alabama it is illegal to have a midwife, in fact, midwifery is completely illegal in the entire state in every aspect of birthing. So unless you have a small fortune and are able to find a midwife that is willing to break the law for you, you are forced into an unnatural labor. You are forced to birth into a hospital (which actually was very peaceful surprisingly, but not my home) but at the same time you had no control. The nurses and dr. Totally controlled every aspect of my birth and even though my baby came out healthy and beautiful, I still wish I would have gotten the birth I dreamt of (either an at home water birth, or an at home, walk around in my own house, squat and push.) instead what did I get.. An induced labor, in which they began by breaking my water and because of the added pitocin, the pain was unbearable, so bad I continuously threw up. I made it 5 hours before the pain got so bad and I couldn’t stop throwing up, the nurse was worried I wouldn’t have the strength to push. So of course the nurse had me freaking out so I was like “fine, give me a walking epidural..” As my fiance’s family and mine were sitting in the room with us I was thinking in my head “I sure wish I could relax, but with these people in here I feel like I have to be a host” so I’m going through the steps of getting closer to push, I started feeling the urge to push and the Dr. Wasn’t showing up so the nurse wouldn’t let me push even though that was my natural feeling.. Finally the Dr. shows up and allows me to push, with about 3 pushes she was out. I love her so much but because of modern/western medicine, I feel like I failed, like I couldn’t do what all women are naturally born to do.
If you love in a state and are able to have a natural birth, please
My next birth I will be in complete control. I won’t let a doctor or nurse tell me what to do. My next birth, I am going to ‘The Farm’ where they have birthed over 2000 babies completely natural and only ONE c-section. If I can’t go to the farm then I will figure out a way to have my birth the way I want. I don’t want an IV, I don’t want family there, the only person I want next to me is my fiancé, and my midwife, I don’t want drugs, I don’t want any intervening, and I don’t want anyone to pull my baby out, I want to squat and push the baby out with only someone to catch her. I want to say I did it! I had my baby naturally!!!!!
Fuck you Alabama! How dare you take my rights away!
I love my baby girl so much!! But it’s time to admit, I am experiencing postpartum depression, it truly exists and it’s horrible!!! Help!!!!
Alright, I just had a baby girl two and a half months ago. It was the best day of my life! She is absolutely perfect in every way and I couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful baby!
Being a mother is the most amazing thing I have ever experienced and I hope everyone who wants to gets the chance to know what it is like. To hold this perfect little being and look into her eyes and know she is mine, know she is a creation between me and the person I love! It is incredible to watch life through her eyes. watch her experience everything for the first time. I wish I could experience everything for the first time like she does!
Anyways.. before pregnancy I had finally gotten down to my goal weight having lost 70 some lbs and at 135 lb… Well during pregnancy I gained ONE HUNDRED DREADFUL POUNDS! After giving birth I lost 30 lbs which put me at 70 lbs over weight so now I have to start over again! Which is fine, I am looking forward to being able to fit in my cute clothes, and having a bigger variety of clothing. I don’t even care about the weight, I am not mad or upset, a little disappointed that I didn’t control my eating better when I was pregnant but oh well, I can’t dwell in the past I can only look at the future and hope that I can drop this weight! I just need to get my thyroid checked and get back to work!
Time to be a hot momma! Time to get to my normal size and feel good about myself!
I get, the absolute, best job in the entire world. I get the privilege to be Addaleigh Victoria Vest’s mommy. I get to wake up every morning, kiss her little cheek, and watch her stretch out. I get to be there for every little new thing she does, when she smiled and meant it, I was there, and when she laughs I will be there. I am the luckiest person in the world!
I love her with everything in me and every time I see her mimic or smile or hold her head up I can’t help but smile and giggle.
Being a new parent is something I never will forget, I will never regret my decision to be her mommy. I know it’s hard, it’s been hard its been tiring, it’s been frustrating but the reward is worth it.
I just can’t wait until my body gets back to normal, I can’t wait for my extreme mood swings to subside, to not be so emotional and to not be a raging bitch. No one tells you about the mood swings after birth. They really should prepare both you and your partner for these mood swing because my poor fiancé is getting the brunt of all mood swings. That poor man comes home everyday so excited to see his baby girl and I have to ruin it with my bitchiness. I feel so bad! I love him so so much and I am so thankful that he is my partner in this. He’s absolutely amazing and I couldn’t have asked for a better partner in life, I just hope he’s able to look past my mood swings and still love me and still want to be with me… I DON’T EVEN WANT TO BE AROUND ME and I feel bad that he is STUCK with me..
James, I love you with my whole heart and I am so glad I get to share this amazing experience with you!
Addie is incredible :-)